I have been with my boyfriend for almost 6 years and we have been?

ive been with my boyfriend for 6 years..and we have been tru sooo much!okay he has done so much to me and i have put up with him..he has a drug and alcohol problem..and i basically take care of him..he has hit me many times and says he dont remeber???right now he is in jail i put him in there..and i just wanted him to learn his lesson and..now he is on immagration hold...omg..im dying and it all for my fault he has been in there since thursday..i love him soooo much this is not what i wanted..im so sceard he is going to get deported and never talk to me agian..